Painful

Felt a little down today, but this time is was a physical down not a mental one.

My period started again. Painful periods are not new or unique to me, many women suffer the same and worse. Menstrual pain has been a part of my life since I hit puberty.  Sometimes it’s just general discomfort, sometimes I can’t stand straight and at it’s worse, I’m curled up in a ball, hot water bottle on my back, pain killers in my belly and crying. Today’s experience was just a strong discomfort with occasional sharp cramp when I moved. Which is better than it was yesterday, severe discomfort and unwillingness to move.

But today was painful enough to know that it was not the day to do work that would stress my back, meaning I was in no condition to go weed the front garden which was my plan for today.

Instead I sat at my desk, because my desk chair is the most supportive, and I edited. I managed to get through to the end of the novel I started editing yesterday.  That is the one that I printed and ranted about earlier in the week and edited on paper, I finished transferring those edits to the electronic version today.

It wasn’t what I wanted to do, but it was productive.

All I have to do now is take it from the scenes as I’ve written them into readable chapters.

Oh, and weed the front garden, but both of those are for another day.

Now stay safe and stay well.

24

Today has been an odd day. Got up, had a bath, felt better for that.  Had a look through the cupboards and planned meals for the week. Went out shopping for the bits I didn’t have. That was strange, really odd to see so many shelves empty. It wasn’t fun, I felt squiffy through it all. And still couldn’t get spaghetti. Then we went to The Range to replace a torch damaged by a leaky battery.  Unexpectedly, got spaghetti there.

The squiffy has a reason, and is on-going.

You see, as well as mental health issues, I have physical health issues too. One of these issues is recurring anaemia, and the fact that I have really heavy, very painful periods, is a contributory to that. In an effort of overcome this, I discussed the possibility of using an implanted contraceptive, as I know people for whom it has stopped their periods, which would be fantastic for me.

My doctor was very good about this, and did warn me that no periods is only one possibility, other possibilities include constant spotting, or pretty much any affect, it all depends on how the individual reacts to it. My reaction wasn’t good. I started having falls and getting dizzy spells, this is likely to be a combination of different factors going on in my body. Remember I’m telling my story here, not giving medical advice. The implant was removed last week.

By now you may be wondering what 24 has to do with anything. Both title and my squiffy day are probably linked to the fact that I’m now on days 24 of my period. On the positive side, there’s no pain, a very real upside for me. But I am left feeling very tired and down.  This too will, I hope, pass.