The pain has disappeared today, seems my body has returned to its usual monthly rhythm; two days of pain and bleeding so heavy it’s more like haemorrhaging, then it’s over. Today, it appears to be over. Woohoo!
This morning I had a lie-in, but when I got up, I got into shorts (first time in well over a year) and a t-shirt, and I went out to dig over the front flower bed – the one I couldn’t face yesterday. Got my daughter to come down and help pull the grass, weeds and big stones out of the turned over soil. Took about an hour, a not very big piece of ground, but it was an hour out in the fresh air.
More importantly it feels like I achieved something today, a good thing for a depressive. As I am feeling good today, there’s something I wanted to say that often gets forgotten:
DON’T STOP TAKING THE TABLETS.
Although I’m only taking multivitamins and supplements, and I don’t feel like I need them, I take them all the same because it is that continuity which sees us through and ensures good health.
Felt a little down today, but this time is was a physical down not a mental one.
My period started again. Painful periods are not new or unique to me, many women suffer the same and worse. Menstrual pain has been a part of my life since I hit puberty. Sometimes it’s just general discomfort, sometimes I can’t stand straight and at it’s worse, I’m curled up in a ball, hot water bottle on my back, pain killers in my belly and crying. Today’s experience was just a strong discomfort with occasional sharp cramp when I moved. Which is better than it was yesterday, severe discomfort and unwillingness to move.
But today was painful enough to know that it was not the day to do work that would stress my back, meaning I was in no condition to go weed the front garden which was my plan for today.
Instead I sat at my desk, because my desk chair is the most supportive, and I edited. I managed to get through to the end of the novel I started editing yesterday. That is the one that I printed and ranted about earlier in the week and edited on paper, I finished transferring those edits to the electronic version today.
It wasn’t what I wanted to do, but it was productive.
All I have to do now is take it from the scenes as I’ve written them into readable chapters.
Oh, and weed the front garden, but both of those are for another day.